Today is Wednesday... I started off the day feeling really good, ok, not REALLY good, but good. Things were going well and Doss told me about some people interested in some different stuff we have listed right now. I was looking forward to selling some stuff and making our apartment look more and more empty. The more bare it looks the more I feel like I'm moving. Anyway, things were going well. All of my appointments showed up, well except for one lady who was too sick, and things were moving along well.
I got a call from Jamieson and it looks like he will fly out of Honolulu to Seattle with Doss and I and will be picking up his car at the same time we are. That was good to hear. I always like to be surrounded by family and if we can help Jamieson or he can help us it's even better.
After that I spoke with Deb! She let me know about some emails she had sent and about a trip to the Oregon coast. I went and read her email and I always enjoy that, the only thing was she had said that she talked to our dad in Oregon. Nothing odd there but then she picked up on his not so enthusiastic feelings on Doss and I moving to Oregon. When I talked to dad I just kind of played it off as him being concerned and I know that that is what he was trying to do. But for some reason when someone else picks up on the not so enthusiastic feelings it makes them seem all the more real.
Now I've begun to doubt myself. I feel like a failure or like I'm not equipped to handle this. Should we just stay in Hawaii in jobs that we hate so that people wont think that we are careless? I guess I knew that there was going to be someone who wasn't going to be excited about this and I guess that is probably why I told Dad last. I just kind of feel like crap right now. I know that we wont be going with as much money that we would be going with if we waited another 7 months but we have a good plan. We are willing to work any job that will give us some kind of income. We aren't expecting to loaf around and wait for something to come along. We just want a new start. Are we being crazy? I feel rather crushed at this point. I don't really want to finish out the day but I will. Anyway, I applied for 2 more jobs today.
I guess we'll see where things take us tomorrow.
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DAMMIT! Dad is such a weiner... I'm sorry McKenzie- don't let Dad get to you. I don't know why he has to be so dumb about things. I love you and I know that you guys are doing great things- do not worry about him... :)
PS: I don't think you guys are being crazy.
don't you ever ever ever feel that way about this move!!! only you and doss know what is best for the two of you and unfortunately, not everyone will agree. but too bad!! moving was one the best thing that myka and i ever did for ourselves, for our marriage, for our family, for our LIFE!! and i know it will be the same for the two of you!! because it doesn't matter where you are or what's going on around you as long as the two of you are together!!
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